Thursday, June 17, 2010
went out this few days...with my brothers and sister...gone out and have fun but everytime in the middle of the fun i would always think about you...it seems like i could not forget about no matter how hard i tried...i tends to get worried about u...i had put hair extension again!!!hahas happy about tat yea...lols...planning for end of yr chalet i hope you could come...i really hope so...haiz...hmm tmr wonder wats up for me...wanted to play bb but cant cause my back spine starting to hurt so much again...haiz...wat else can i do???sadded no ppl to pei me chat or sms...
Nicole Sim you noe wat??i have been missing you so much every single day you noe???i wonder if you felt it?i am worried about you do you noe?feeling damn worried about you every where i go thinking whether if anything happened to you or wat...haiz...i had so much promises waiting for u to complete so i will be waiting for you yea??will be waiting for you bi with cargoloads of loves...i love you Bi loves you so damn much misses you as much as i loves you hugs and kisses...i hope we pass this test yea?loves loves
Thursday, June 10, 2010
its been 1months and 11 days ever since the day u left me...now i am like a zombie half dead half alive...when u entered my life 3 yrs ago i thought i could had u for life take care of u till we both old...but den now the thought was just gone...思恋的我，爱的痛苦而得不倒你的爱的感觉，想爱一个人再没有勇气说“我爱你”。you noe wat?i bought you so much things and u were lazy to bring it home and told me tat u will take it home one day at once...but den till now those things were still the e cupboard full of things tat i bought for u yet u still had not taken it back...
if i admits hospital one day wat if i really admit hospital...in a critical condition...would u come and visit me or would u just ignore about it?if i was about to die would u see me till the very last breathe of mine?if u really will i don mind those things happening now...death is nth to me...yes i fear death...but when there is love,it overcomes the fear of death and to me i had met death countless times but my death is not important as ur life were the most important to me...
are promises made meant to be broken?or ppl just makes promises to another person just to pleased tat person?is tat how promises meant?every night i could not sleep till late mignight which means almost morning of another day...thinking about u the past and those sweet and bitter memories you left me in my life...you noe i miss you CARGO LOADS?every night after i sleep it would be dreams about me and you memories of our past and mayb memories of future...sometimes u would rather live in dreams dan in real life because right now in dreams i had you with me tgt hand in hand so sweet but in real life i had lost you...
ever since we started our relationship till we ended our relationship i wanted to noe something so much which tat is had u ever cherished those time,those hugs and kisses and had you ever cherished and treasured the relationship we had?i could say i had because i really did cherished and treasured u...had u done ur part as a girlfriend?every day u would repeat the same word sorry and sorry again and again...wats the point of saying sorry when u don even learn from tat mistakes?repeating it again and again and den say just a sorry wats the point?'
if u said u had seen how cruel the world is,i can tell u tat u had not seen wat the real world is...when u see it u would not be able to take it...
why does everyone wants me to give her up?is it because u guys donnoe the true story of us tat was hidden since long ago?but tat story you guys will nvr know because its a promise i made to her so i wont break my promise about tat...
Nicole Sim Hui you noe wat?you were the girl whom guide my path and you were the girl whom changed my life.you were the one whom change my opinion on nature environment and you were the one whom let me experienced true love and you were the one whom left me alone with the memories of us and you were the one whom made a deep wound on my heart making it bleed profusely every single day.do you actually noe how i felt?im feeling dead even though im actually alive now...its no difference because ard 3 yrs ago u took me from my world to another world created by you and me and den now u left the world we created and leave me all alone in this world which we created with the memories of our past...can a world stand with just one person and memories of the past?think about urself...if u wan it to collapse it will mean i will collapse with it too...leaving ur responsibilities in this world to make me take up and handle it all alone.
Nicole Sim Hui you noe wat?no matter how much you had hurt me how deeply u had done it in the end i still love you as much as before everyday i carries the hope of you coming back.waiting for ur name to appear on my phone waiting for ur call waiting for ur love and waiting for you...
